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Photographer鈥檚 12-Year Quest to Document Her Life Produces a Rich Portrait of Aging

A dozen years ago, at age 70, Marna Clarke had a dream. She was walking on a sidewalk and rounded a corner. Ahead of her, she saw an end to the path and nothing beyond.

It was a turning point for Clarke. 鈥淚 realized, 鈥極h my God, I鈥檓 nearer the end than the beginning,鈥欌 she said. Soon, she was seized by a desire to examine what she looked like at that time 鈥 and to document the results.

Clarke, a professional photographer decades before, picked up a camera and began capturing images of her face, hair, eyes, arms, legs, feet, hands, and torso. In many, she was undressed. 鈥淚 was exploring the physical part of being older,鈥 she told me.

It was a radical act: Older women are largely invisible in our culture, and honest and unsentimental portraits of their bodies are almost never seen.

Before long, Clarke, who lives in Inverness, California, turned her lens on her partner, Igor Sazevich, a painter and architect 11 years her senior, and began recording scenes of their life together. Eventually, she realized they were growing visibly older in these photographs. And she understood she was creating a multiyear portrait of aging.

A photo shows Marna Clarke and Igor Sazevich together, hanging a garland around their house.
Marna Clarke and Igor Sazevich decorated their home last Christmas, when he wasn't feeling too sick. 鈥淚gor had an incredibly beautiful home and a knack of making cozy spaces out of rooms with high ceilings," Clarke says.

The collection that resulted, which she titled 鈥淭ime As We Know It,鈥 this year won a LensCulture Critics鈥 Choice Award, given to 40 photographers on five continents. 鈥淭here is a universality and humility in seeing these images which remind us of the power of love and the fragility of life,鈥 wrote Rhea Combs of the Smithsonian Institution鈥檚 National Portrait Gallery, one of the judges.

Early on, some people were offended by the images Clarke displayed at galleries in the San Francisco Bay Area, near her home. 鈥淚 found out there鈥檚 a taboo about showing older adults鈥 bodies 鈥 some people were just aghast,鈥 she told me in a phone conversation.

But many people in their 50s, 60s, 70s, and 80s expressed gratitude. 鈥淚 learned that older people are dying for some kind of recognition and acceptance and that they want to feel seen 鈥 to feel that they鈥檙e not invisible,鈥 Clarke said.

Art has many benefits in later life, both for creators and for those who enjoy their work. It can improve health by expanding well-being, cultivating a sense of purpose, and countering beliefs such as the assumption that older age is defined almost exclusively by deterioration and decline, wrote in 鈥淭he Creative Age: Awakening Human Potential in the Second Half of Life,鈥 published in 2000.

Cohen, a psychiatrist, was the first director of the Center for Aging, Health and Humanities at George Washington University and acting director of the National Institute on Aging from 1991 to 1993.

In 2006, Cohen published findings from the , conducted in San Francisco; Brooklyn, New York; and the Washington, D.C., area. Two groups of older adults were studied: those who participated weekly in arts programs led by professionals and people who went about their usual business. Those in the first group saw doctors less often, used less medication, were more active, and had better physical and mental health overall, the study found.

For Clarke, 鈥減erspective鈥 and 鈥渁cceptance of my body as it is鈥 have been benefits of her 12-year project. As a young and middle-aged woman, she said, she was 鈥渙bsessed鈥 with and anxious about her appearance. 鈥淣ow, I think there鈥檚 a beauty that comes out of people when they accept who they are,鈥 she told me. 鈥淚t鈥檚 altered how I look at myself and how I see others.鈥

Shortly after our first conversation, in early August, Clarke, now 82, found herself at another turning point with the , 93, who had lymphoma and refused chemotherapy. The couple had been together since 2003 but hadn鈥檛 married.

Sazevich had fallen three times in the months before, broken his hip, contracted pneumonia in the hospital, and returned home on hospice. As he lay in bed on his final day, receiving morphine and surrounded by family, two dogs belonging to one of his daughters came close, checking on him every hour. At the moment of his death, they growled, probably because 鈥渢hey felt a change in the energy,鈥 Clarke said.

A photo shows Marna Clarke resting her head on her partner's deathbed.
As her partner, Igor Sazevich, lay dying, Marna Clarke says, she 鈥渨as talking to him and caressing him.鈥 鈥淭hen I sat with him and held his very swollen hands,鈥 she says. 鈥淥ver and over again, I told him I loved him. I know he heard me.鈥

鈥淚t was amazing 鈥 I have never been through an experience like that in my life,鈥 she said about Sazevich鈥檚 death. 鈥淭here was so much love in that room, you could cut it with a knife. I think it鈥檚 changed me. It鈥檚 given me a glimpse of what鈥檚 possible with humans.鈥

Everywhere she goes in Inverness, Clarke runs into people who tell her how sorry they are for her loss and ask if they can help. 鈥淚 am overwhelmed by the care pouring over me from my friends and family,鈥 she told me. 鈥淚t鈥檚 like a huge embrace.鈥

It takes a community to comfort an older adult coping with loss, just as it takes a community to raise a child. Clarke said she is still 鈥渦p and down emotionally 鈥 questioning what death is鈥 as she processes her loss.

Eventually, Clarke said, she wants to restart work on 鈥淭ime As We Know It.鈥 鈥淏ecause it鈥檚 about aging me,鈥 she said. 鈥淢y aging. And that鈥檚 what I鈥檓 committed to. It鈥檚 given me a purpose. And when you鈥檙e growing old, you need to have something you love and makes you feel alive.鈥

Marna Clarke photographed her partner Igor Sazevich's shirt one morning when "this lovely light" was shining on it. Now, the photo is a symbol of his absence, she says.

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