One evening in May, nursing assistant Debra Ragoonanan鈥檚 vision blurred during her shift at a state-run Massachusetts veterans home. As her head spun, she said, she called her husband. He picked her up and drove her to the emergency room, where she was diagnosed with a brain aneurysm.
It was the latest in a drumbeat of health issues that she traces to the first months of 2020, when dozens of veterans died at the Soldiers鈥 Home in Holyoke, in one of the country鈥檚 at a long-term nursing facility. Ragoonanan has worked at the home for nearly 30 years. Now, she said, the sights, sounds, and smells there trigger her trauma. Among her ailments, she lists panic attacks, brain fog, and other symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder, .
Scrutiny of the outbreak prompted the state to change the facility鈥檚 name to the , replace its leadership, sponsor a of the premises, and agree to a $56 million settlement for veterans and families. But the front-line caregivers have received little relief as they grapple with the outbreak鈥檚 toll.
鈥淚 am retraumatized all the time,鈥 Ragoonanan said, sitting on her back porch before her evening shift. 鈥淗ow am I supposed to move forward?鈥
Covid killed more than 3,600 U.S. health care workers in the first year of the pandemic. It left many more with physical and mental illnesses 鈥 and a gutting sense of abandonment.
What workers experienced has been detailed in state investigations, surveys of nurses, and published studies. These found that many health care workers weren鈥檛 given masks in 2020. Many got covid and worked while sick. More than a dozen lawsuits filed on behalf of residents or workers at nursing facilities detail such experiences. And others allege that accommodations weren鈥檛 made for workers facing depression and PTSD triggered by their pandemic duties. Some of the lawsuits have been dismissed, and others are pending.
Health care workers and unions reported risky conditions to state and federal agencies. But the federal Occupational Safety and Health Administration had fewer inspectors in 2020 to investigate complaints than at any point in a half-century. It investigated only about that were filed officially, and just 4% of more than 16,000 informal reports made by phone or email.
Nursing assistants, health aides, and other lower-wage health care workers were particularly vulnerable during outbreaks, and many remain burdened now. About 80% of lower-wage workers who provide are women, and these workers are more likely to be immigrants, to be people of color, and to live in poverty than doctors or nurses.
Some of these a person鈥檚 covid risk. They also help explain why these workers had limited power to avoid or protest hazardous conditions, said Eric Frumin, formerly the safety and health director for the Strategic Organizing Center, a coalition of labor unions.
He also cited decreasing membership in unions, which negotiate for higher wages and safer workplaces. One-third of the U.S. labor force was , but the level has fallen to 10% in recent years.
Like essential workers in meatpacking plants and warehouses, nursing assistants were at risk because of their status, Frumin said: 鈥淭he powerlessness of workers in this country condemns them to be treated as disposable.鈥
In interviews, essential workers in various industries told 麻豆女优 Health News they felt duped by a system that asked them to risk their lives in the nation鈥檚 moment of need but that now offers little assistance for harm incurred in the line of duty.
鈥淭he state doesn鈥檛 care. The justice system doesn鈥檛 care. Nobody cares,鈥 Ragoonanan said. 鈥淎ll of us have to go right back to work where this started, so that鈥檚 a double whammy.鈥
鈥楢 War Zone鈥
The plight of health care workers is a problem for the United States as the population ages and the threat of future pandemics looms. called their burnout 鈥渁n urgent public health issue鈥 leading to diminished care for patients. That鈥檚 on top of a predicted shortage of more than 3.2 million lower-wage health care workers by 2026, according to the .
The veterans home in Holyoke illustrates how labor conditions can jeopardize the health of employees. The facility is not unique, but its situation has been vividly described in a state investigative report and in a report from a joint oversight committee of the Massachusetts Legislature.
The Soldiers鈥 Home made headlines in March 2020 when got a tip about refrigerator trucks packed with the bodies of dead veterans outside the facility. About 80 residents died within a few months.

The placed blame on the home鈥檚 leadership, starting with Superintendent Bennett Walsh. 鈥淢r. Walsh and his team created close to an optimal environment for the spread of COVID-19,鈥 the report said. He resigned under pressure at the end of 2020.
Investigators said that 鈥渁t least 80 staff members鈥 tested positive for covid, citing 鈥渁t least in part鈥 the management鈥檚 鈥渇ailure to provide and require the use of proper protective equipment,鈥 even restricting the use of masks. They included a disciplinary letter sent to one nursing assistant who had donned a mask as he cared for a sick veteran overnight in March. 鈥淵our actions are disruptive, extremely inappropriate,鈥 it said.
To avoid hiring more caretakers, the home鈥檚 leadership combined infected and uninfected veterans in the same unit, fueling the spread of the virus, the report found. It said veterans didn鈥檛 receive sufficient hydration or pain-relief drugs as they approached death, and it included testimonies from employees who described the situation as 鈥渢otal pandemonium,鈥 鈥渁 nightmare,鈥 and 鈥渁 war zone.鈥
Because his wife was immunocompromised, Walsh didn鈥檛 enter the care units during this period, according to his lawyer鈥檚 statement in a deposition obtained by 麻豆女优 Health News. 鈥淗e never observed the merged unit,鈥 it said.
In contrast, nursing assistants told 麻豆女优 Health News that they worked overtime, even with covid, because they were afraid of being fired if they stayed home. 鈥淚 kept telling my supervisor, 鈥業 am very, very sick,鈥欌 said Sophia Darkowaa, a nursing assistant who said she now suffers from PTSD and symptoms of long covid. 鈥淚 had like four people die in my arms while I was sick.鈥
Nursing assistants recounted how overwhelmed and devastated they felt by the pace of death among veterans whom they had known for years 鈥 years of helping them dress, shave, and shower, and of listening to their memories of war.
鈥淭hey were in pain. They were hollering. They were calling on God for help,鈥 Ragoonanan said. 鈥淭hey were vomiting, their teeth showing. They鈥檙e pooping on themselves, pooping on your shoes.鈥
Nursing assistant Kwesi Ablordeppey said the veterans were like family to him. 鈥淥ne night I put five of them in body bags,鈥 he said. 鈥淭hat will never leave my mind.鈥
Four years have passed, but he said he still has trouble sleeping and sometimes cries in his bedroom after work. 鈥淚 wipe the tears away so that my kids don鈥檛 know.鈥
High Demands, Low Autonomy
A third of health care workers reported symptoms of PTSD related to the pandemic, according to covering 24,000 workers worldwide. The disorder predisposes people to dementia and Alzheimer鈥檚. It can lead to substance use and self-harm.
Since covid began, Laura van Dernoot Lipsky, director of the Trauma Stewardship Institute, has been inundated by emails from health care workers considering suicide. 鈥淢ore than I have ever received in my career,鈥 she said. Their cries for help have not diminished, she said, because trauma often creeps up long after the acute emergency has quieted.
Another factor contributing to these workers鈥 trauma is 鈥渕oral injury,鈥 a term first applied to soldiers who experienced intense guilt after carrying out orders that betrayed their values. It became common among in the pandemic who weren鈥檛 given ample resources to provide care.
鈥淔olks who don鈥檛 make as much money in health care deal with high job demands and low autonomy at work, both of which make their positions even more stressful,鈥 said Rachel Hoopsick, a public health researcher at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign. 鈥淭hey also have fewer resources to cope with that stress,鈥 she added.
People in lower income brackets have to mental health treatment. And health care workers with less education and financial security are less able to take extended time off, to relocate for jobs elsewhere, or to shift careers to avoid retriggering their traumas.
Such memories can feel as intense as the original event. 鈥淚f there鈥檚 not a change in circumstances, it can be really, really, really hard for the brain and nervous system to recalibrate,鈥 van Dernoot Lipsky said. Rather than focusing on self-care alone, she pushes for policies to ensure adequate staffing at health facilities and accommodations for mental health issues.
In 2021, Massachusetts legislators acknowledged the plight of the Soldiers鈥 Home residents and staff in a joint saying the events would 鈥渋mpact their well-being for many years.鈥
But only veterans have received compensation. 鈥淭heir sacrifices for our freedom should never be forgotten or taken for granted,鈥 the state鈥檚 veterans services director, Jon Santiago, said at an event announcing a memorial for veterans who died in the Soldiers鈥 Home outbreak. The state鈥檚 $56 million settlement followed a class-action lawsuit brought by about 80 veterans who were sickened by covid and a roughly equal number of families of veterans who died.
The state鈥檚 attorney general also brought criminal charges against Walsh and the home鈥檚 former medical director, David Clinton, in connection with their handling of the crisis. The two averted a trial and possible jail time this March by changing their not-guilty pleas, instead acknowledging that the facts of the case were sufficient to warrant a guilty finding.
An attorney representing Walsh and Clinton, Michael Jennings, declined to comment on queries from 麻豆女优 Health News. He instead referred to legal proceedings in March, in which Jennings argued that 鈥渕any nursing homes proved inadequate in the nascent days of the pandemic鈥 and that 鈥渃riminalizing blame will do nothing to prevent further tragedy.鈥
Nursing assistants sued the home鈥檚 leadership, too. The lawsuit alleged that, in addition to their symptoms of long covid, what the aides witnessed 鈥渓eft them emotionally traumatized, and they continue to suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder.鈥
The case was dismissed before trial, with courts ruling that the caretakers could have simply left their jobs. 鈥淧laintiff could have resigned his employment at any time,鈥 Judge Mark Mastroianni wrote, referring to Ablordeppey, the nursing assistants鈥 named representative in the case.
But the choice was never that simple, said Erica Brody, a lawyer who represented the nursing assistants. 鈥淲hat makes this so heartbreaking is that they couldn鈥檛 have quit, because they needed this job to provide for their families.鈥
鈥楬elp Us To Retire鈥
Brody didn鈥檛 know of any cases in which staff at long-term nursing facilities successfully held their employers accountable for labor conditions in covid outbreaks that left them with mental and physical ailments. 麻豆女优 Health News pored through lawsuits and called about a dozen lawyers but could not identify any such cases in which workers prevailed.
A Massachusetts chapter of the Service Employees International Union, SEIU Local 888, is looking outside the justice system for help. It has pushed for a bill 鈥 proposed last year by Judith Garc铆a, a Democratic state representative 鈥 to allow workers at the state veterans home in Holyoke, along with its sister facility in Chelsea, to receive their retirement benefits five to 10 years earlier than usual. The bill鈥檚 fate will be decided in December.
Retirement benefits for Massachusetts state employees amount to 80% of a person鈥檚 salary. Workers qualify at different times, depending on the job. Police officers get theirs at age 55. Nursing assistants qualify once the sum of their time working at a government facility and their age comes to around 100 years. The state stalls the clock if these workers take off more than their allotted days for sickness or vacation.
Several nursing assistants at the Holyoke veterans home exceeded their allotments because of long-lasting covid symptoms, post-traumatic stress, and, in Ragoonanan鈥檚 case, a brain aneurysm. Even five years would make a difference, Ragoonanan said, because, at age 56, she fears her life is being shortened. 鈥淗elp us to retire,鈥 she said, staring at the slippers covering her swollen feet. 鈥淲e have bad PTSD. We鈥檙e crying, contemplating suicide.鈥

I got my funeral dress out because the way everybody was dying, I knew I was going to die.
Debra Ragoonanan
Certain careers are linked with shorter life spans. Similarly, economists have shown that, on average, people with lower incomes in the United States than those with more. Nearly 60% of long-term care workers are among the bottom earners in the country, paid less than $30,000 鈥 or about $15 per hour 鈥 in 2018, according to analyses by the Department of and , a health policy research, polling, and news organization that includes 麻豆女优 Health News.
Fair pay was among the solutions listed in the surgeon general鈥檚 report on burnout. Another was 鈥渉azard compensation during public health emergencies.鈥
If employers offer disability benefits, that generally entails a pay cut. Nursing assistants at the Holyoke veterans home said it would halve their wages, a loss they couldn鈥檛 afford.
鈥淟ow-wage workers are in an impossible position, because they鈥檙e scraping by with their full salaries,鈥 said John Magner, SEIU Local 888鈥檚 legal director.
Despite some public displays of gratitude for health care workers early in the pandemic, essential workers haven鈥檛 received the financial support given to veterans or to emergency personnel who risked their lives to save others in the aftermath of 9/11. Talk show host Jon Stewart, for example, has lobbied for this group for over a decade, successfully pushing Congress to compensate them for their sacrifices.
鈥淧eople need to understand how high the stakes are,鈥 van Dernoot Lipsky said. 鈥淚t鈥檚 so important that society doesn鈥檛 put this on individual workers and then walk away.鈥
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